For some reason, us humans are so controlled by a clock. so controlled by a callender. For some reason, we connect to beginings and ends. These connections are not harmful in any way I can tell, but I do think it’s interesting enough to be noted.
For me, years have much significance in the past few years for me in how the seem to distinctly represent themselves as mile markers in different ways.
This year, this is it.
I have seen myself falling into a real delemma throughout my life. Sometimes it is stronger then others, but I find myself being very self centered. This focus on myself has led me to selfishness, poor self worth and self esteem, lazieness, and in different moments in my life, real struggles with porn and such sins that go along with that. It has caused me a lot of pain and lot of time spent on social media and such looking for exceptance in any way possible. The times where my self worth was the lowest, I struggled the hardest and the moments I found my true identity given to me by Christ, I struggled very little.
Unfortunately, I’ve spent a lot more time not believing the identity God has spoken over me so many times through the Bible, through experiences I’ve had, and through others testifying what they heard from God (and usually it was right on time and right in the moment I needed to hear it that lined up with the word and what he had spoken to me in my heart.)
What I’m deciding to do in 2017 is far beyond my comfort zone and far beyond what I can handle on my own but I KNOW will prove itself useful and worth while: staying of social media for a year and staying of the internet for social reasoning or mindless activity. I’ve known for probably a year or two that I needed to get off of social media, and I’ve gone weeks and sometimes months off of it, but always gotten back on at critical moments when I should have stayed off. I will keep up my blog, and if possible, post them to Facebook without going on, but if that is impossible, I will just have to pray that people who need to hear what is said on here will find it.
I know that God has told me
“Don’t stop writing”
And I’ve seen me abilities flourish as well as how the words I’ve written have inspired people. I know that I’ve experienced freedom through writing as well and know I’m supposed to continue this blog. I will have to entrust the rest to God on how it is to be used.
I encourage you, reader, to take a challenge like this on if you’re finding yourself distracted, hurt, self destructive or anything else. Even just for a short time. It always proves useful, but either way, if you ever have prayer requests, questions or thoughts, message, email, text, call me.
I want to use this next year to
- love the people around me
- Spend more time in the Word of God
- Clame freedom over my addiction, FOR GOOD
- Invest in family
- Learn more about who God says I am
- Focus less on me and more on others
- BE FREE
2017: just another journey around the sun, but this time around, come hell or high water, I will not be stopped, because the Lord my God is with me!
“Have you never heard? Have you never understood? The LORD is the everlasting God, the Creator of all the earth. He never grows weak or weary. No one can measure the depths of his understanding. He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion. But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.”
Isaiah 40:28-31 NLT